Sara's Secret

[trishj]

This is a story I posted a while ago, it is one of my favorites.  I am also posting the adult version on fanfiction.

Chapter 1

Not many people impressed Grissom.  He has been dealing with the public for sometime now.
  He has meant people from all walks of life, even the president at one time.
  But there she stood, the most beautiful woman he had ever laid eyes on.
  She had applied for the CSI job that was open.
  Ecklie handed her to him because he was supervisor,  ?Miss Sidle, have a seat,? he said, ?May I call you Sara??
 ?Yes sir,? she replied.
 ?Grissom or Gil will be fine.  I have just a few questions.  Your application says you worked in San Francisco.  Why did you leave??  ?Personal? was all she said.
  ?Personal? You don?t want to elaborate on that?? he asked.  ?Let?s say that my supervisor and I no longer saw eye to eye and my life became unbearable.?
 ?You are a CSI grade 3?  Not many women reach that grade,? he added.
 ?I realize that, it took me a while to get it too,? she added.
 ?It says you went to school to get it, not through work as most do,? he questioned.
  ?My supervisor did not think women should be grade 3.  He would not let me do it the ?normal way?, she told him.
 ?It is much harder to do it through school, you are to be congratulated,? he said.  She thanked him.
  ?You have not worked for 3 years?? he asked.   ?I did, it is listed here.  I did take a year off between San Francisco and Hill Crest,? she leans in and points to the spot where she has it written down.
The smell of her hair was intoxicating.
  ?It is a small town east of here.  I could not do the kind of work I wanted to do there,? she tells him.
  ?I see no reason why you can?t start shift tomorrow,? he told her.  She stood and shook his hand and said she would see him then.
  Her hand felt so soft, and those eyes, how beautiful.  There was no doubt he was in love.
 He called San Francisco.  ?Mr. Jones, This is Gil Grissom.  I?m with the crime lab in Las Vegas.  A Sara Sidle has applied here and I am checking her references out.?
 Jones verified all her information, told him she was an excellent criminologist and a good worker.
 ?Why did she leave?? Gil asked.
  There was a pause, ?About 3 years ago we had a disagreement and things went down hill from that.  Shortly after she left.?
 Grissom thanked him.  Over the next week Gil has asked her out several times.  Each time she was busy and unable to go.
  He finally asked flat out if she was involved with someone.  She told him no, just busy.
 He did not know it was hard for her to say ?NO?.
  She was interested in him and she wanted to get to know him but ?.. she had a secret that kept her from acting on her feelings.
  He looked up her address, he wanted to see her, off the clock, not just as a co worker.
  It was a post office box.  Her phone number was a cell number, no way to get an address from that.
  He was beginning to wonder if she was hiding something.
  Sara  was hiding something, something she was determined no one would find out about.
Gil could not bring himself to stop trying to get to know her.  He had never really been in love before.
  He had had relationships in the past, but none had effected him the way she did.
 He dreamed about her almost every night.  She occupied his every thought, every beat of his heart, every breath he took, she was there.  He went to Human Resource Department and looked at her personal information.
  No next of kin listed, her life insurance went to an attorney, who would tell Grissom nothing.  The attorney was also the person listed to notify in case of an emergency.
  She showed up for work on time every shift, left right after, never hanging out with the gang.  It was almost as if the only time she existed was at work.
  Shift started as always, everyone hanging around the break room waiting for Gil to hand out the assignments for the night.
  Gil walked in and saw Sara sitting by herself reading, while the others talked or watched television.
 ?Nick, we have a leaper.  Some guy took a header off the top floor at the GOLDEN NUGGET.  Take Warrick with you.  Catherine, you have been personally requested at the BACK YARD GRILL.  A friend of yours is in some trouble.  If it gets to be a conflict of interest, then trade with Warrick.  Sara, we have a DB  in the woods.  I hope insects and decomp don?t bother you??
 ?No sir,? was her reply as she laid down her book and followed him out to the Tahoe.  He tried to talk to her again.
 ?The small town you said you lived in?? he started.  ?Hill Crest,? she said.  ?Yes.  You said you could not do the job you wanted to do?  What did you mean be that??
 Sara took a deep breath, ?It was mostly a male run department.  They didn?t like woman doing ?men?s work? so  I resigned.?
 She was confused, she really hated answering his questions.  She was afraid he would uncover her secret.
  But then she also wanted to know as much about him as possible.  She was in love, but she had to keep her distance.
 She could not get involved.  At the site Sara further impressed Gil.  She went straight to work, no squirming over the bugs and no wrinkled nose over the smell.
  She asked questions, he answered,  She seemed to be interested in learning.
  Nick and Warrick were processing their scene.  ?I don?t get Sara,? Nick said.  ?She dose not try to fit in.?
 ?You mean because she won?t let you bang her?? Warrick asked laughing.
 ?No ? not that I have not tried,? he said.  ?It is just that, well she dose not want to ? you know, hang with the rest of us.  It is almost like she thinks she is to good for the rest of us.?
 ?She is good at what she does,? Warrick said, ?That is all I care about.?  ?That is because you and Catherine have a thing going on,? Nick said. 
Warrick just shook his head, ?Load that stuff in the Tahoe and let?s get back.?
 After shift Gil once more asked Sara it she wanted to stop for a bite to eat, once more she said ?No.?  ?For heaven?s sake,? he said, ?it is only breakfast.  Not a life time commitment.?
  Sara?s phone rang, using text messages instead of talking she answered it.  After closing her phone she looked at him and said, ?Ok.  Why not.  I have a few minutes.? 
Grissom almost passed out?she finally said YES.  They went to OVER EASY, his favorite place to eat.  They ordered their breakfast, to his surprise they ordered the same thing.
 Over the meal she opened up a little. about herself.  But when it came to San Francisco, she shut the door.  Considering this progress, he asked her out to dinner and a movie that night.
  ?What is it you want from me?? she asked him.  ?I just want to know you better,? he told her covering her hand with his.  A look came into her eyes that he had never seen before, he was not sure if it was anger, or disgust, or what it was.
 But whatever it was her reaction surprised him even more,  ?If all you want is a piece of tail, there are a lot of hookers on the strip.?
 She threw down her silverware, pushed away from the table and stormed out the door. 
He could not move, he just sat there and watched as she got in her car and sped away. 
At her apartment Sara went to her room and fell on her bed and started to cry.  ?I should not have said that,? she said out loud to no one.  ?He is such a wonderful person and I care for him.?  She cried until she fell asleep.
 Gil finally got over his shock, paid the bill and went back to the lab.  He called Hill Crest and talked to her supervisor.
 All he would say was that ?Miss Sidle did not want to be a woman, she wanted to do what the men did.?  That was why she left. 
Gil did not understand that line of thinking but ? There was a lot of things he did not understand.
  All he knew for sure was HAD to find her and talk to her.  He had to know what could have happened in her life that made her that way.  All the next shift she ignored Gil.  She only spoke when he talked to her, and then they were short answers.
 She was about to clock out and go home when Gil seen her in the hallway.  ?Sara,? he said, ?I need to see you in my office before you leave.?  She walked in.
 ?Shut the door please,? he said pointing to a chair.  She looked at him, ?I think I will stand,?  ?About earlier,? he said, ?you misunderstood me.  I do not believe in casual sex., that was not my intention.  I think you are a fascinating lady and I would like to get to know you better.?  ?Thank you for explaining.  I need to go,? she said.

[Billyjorja]

I love this story.  Will also read other version.

GSRLOVER34 - He can see me in his office anytime he likes.

[GSRLOVER34]

Great start Trish!

billyjorja - He only allows me in his office. 

[trishj]

Chapter 2

Gil just could not let it go, he loved her and he had to tell her.
  There she was walking away.  He went after her but she had already gotten into her car.
 Gil decided to fallow her, he knew it was wrong but he had to tell her how he felt.  He almost felt ashamed of himself, fallowing her like that but he did not know how else to talk to her.
  She pulled up to a lovely small house.  She went in, he sat in the car for a while, he almost changed his mind.
 He got out of his car and knocked on her door.  "What are you doing here?? she demanded to know.
 ?I told you I have to talk to you,? he said.
 From the kitchen a pint sized version of Sara came running into the living room.  ?Mommy, apple please??  Gil looked at the child then at Sara.  Sara looked at the child, ?Sure Tabby.  Go back to the kitchen.?
 The little girl ran back into the kitchen.  ?Coffee?? she asked.  ?Sure,? he said.  They went to the kitchen and sat.
 ?Who are you?? the little girl asked. 
?This is my boss, Gil Grissom.  Grissom, this is Tabatha.?
 Sara fixed the apple for the child and asked her to go play.  They sat in silence for a while, finally Sara spoke.
 ?I guess you want an explanation?"   ?Only if you want,? he said all of a sudden feeling like he was intruding.
  ?I worked in San Francisco for over two years.  When my supervisor retired, Mr. Jones took over.  He did not like women anywhere but in the kitchen and the bedroom.  That is why I went to school.  I showed him my papers that made me a Grade 3.  He invited me for a drink to celebrate.  He raped me.  I tried several times to have charges pressed but everything hit a dead end.  Tabatha is a result of that rape.  Every one tried to talk me into getting rid of her, I could not.  That is why I left, that is why I took a year off.  Tabatha is my secret, and before you ask I am not ashamed of her.  I just hate people sticking their  nose in where it dose not belong and I hate explaining.?
 Gil looks at her, he did not know what to say.
 From the living room they heard Tabatha cry.  Gil fallows Sara, Tabby had fallen.  Gil went to her and picked her up. She showed him a boo-boo on her hand, he kissed it.
 ?All better Butterfly?? he asked.  Tabby smiled at him, ?Yes.? 
He sat  her down, looked at Sara.  ?I am sorry, did I over step my boundaries??  Sara was smiling, ?Not at all, thank you.?
 ?Butterfly?? she said.  ?She reminds me of a butterfly - floating around, landing here and there,? he told her.
 They sat on the couch and talked more, Sara was more relaxed.  ?My neighbor works days,? Sara said, ?she keeps Tabby at night.?  ?Tabby is why you kept turning me down?? Gil questioned.  ?Yes,? Sara said.
 Tabatha ran to Gil and sat on his lp, ?Read please??  ?Tabby, don?t bother Mr. Grissom,? Sara said.  ?No problem,? he said.
 He took the book and started reading.  Sara watched the two of them  Tabby never took to anyone like she had Gil,  Gil read the entire story, twice.
 Sara had fallen asleep.  ?Look, mommy is sleeping?? Tabby said.  ?Then we should be quiet,? Gil said. 
?Can we color?? she asked.  Gil lay on the floor and colored with her.  Two hours latter Sara woke up. 
Gil was laying on the floor, Tabby was laying next to him, sleeping too.  ?I guess I was wrong about him,? she said to herself.
  Tabby shifted, it woke Gil.  ?I am sorry,? he said, ?Must have dozed off.?  Sara smiled at him.
 ?Shall we finish out coffee?? she asked.  Gil groaned as he got up, ?I guess there bones are a little to old for the floor.? 
Sara laughed.  How he loved that laugh and that smile.
 ?Sara, I have a great idea.  We are both off tomorrow night, how about the three of us going to an amusement park??
 ?The three of us?? she questioned.  ?Yes, Tabby is a sweet little butterfly.  I would like to get to know the BOTH of you much better.?
 Sara looked at him, she could not believe what she was hearing.  ?But I ?? this time it was Sara who was falling over her words.
 ?You are what?? he asked.  ?Gil, did you not heat what I said?? she asked.  ?Yes.  You were raped and the rape resulted in a pregnancy,? he said.
  ?A raped woman is damaged goods,? she said, ?and a child of that woman is ??  Gil cut her off, ?The most beautiful little lady I have ever seen,? he said.  ?And you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.  As far as ?damaged goods?.  I have no idea where you heard that, but rape is not about sex, it is abut power.  You, or any woman, can not be held accountable for the actions of a man with no respect for you or himself.?
 She smiled at him.  ?Rape is a crime, like any other.  It would be like holding a store owner responsible for a robbery,? he said as he took her hands in his.
 ?I never thought about it that way,? she said. 
?Sara, from the first day I seen you I knew you were special.  I knew you would play a  special part in my life.  I want to get to know you better because I have fallen in love with you.?
 Sara started to say something, he but his finger on her lips.  ?And Tabatha only makes it better.?
 ?Really?? she said.  ?Yes,? he said.
 He gently took her face in his hands and tenderly kissed her, ?Really.? 
Sara looked at Gil, she could not believe what she had just heard,  ?I am not sure if it is love or not,? she told him. ?I but I do care for you.?
 He smiled at her.  ?I  have had feelings for you from the first also,? she told him.  ?It is, well I did not know how you would take Tabby and the fact tat I am ..? Gil stopped her, ?Never.  Never say that again.  You are a beautiful woman who was violated.  I will never, nor should anyone else ever, hold that against you.  As far as Butterfly is concerned, she is so precious.  A true gift form God.?
 Tabatha came in from the living room, she did not go to her mother, she went right to Gil and held out her hands, ?Up.?
 Gil lifted her up, she kissed his cheek.  ?Thank you Gilly,? she said, ?for reading to me and coloring with me.  Mommy, can Gilly come over again?  Pleaseeeeee.?   Sara looked at Gil, ?He is welcome anytime he wants to come.?
 Tabatha went back to the living room.  ?If I can ask?? Gil said ?Why did you not  push the rape?  He needs to be punished.?
 ?I tried,? she said.  ?He just told everyone that I was drunk, asked for it then cried ?rape? the next day when I sobered up.?
 ?Damn,? Gil said, ?That is so unfair.  Dose he know about Butterfly?? 
?No, I left as soon as I found out I was pregnant I never told him, and never will.?
 ?Tell me more about her, please,? he asked Sara.  "She is 3 years old, will be 4 the 3rd of next month.  She loves horses and stuffed bears.  Her favorite thing to eat is burgers and fries.  She is my life and sometimes she is a pain in the butt.?  Gil laughed.  ?Not butterfly?   About tomorrow,? Gil said, ?you never answered me.?
 ?Let?s ask Tabby.  Tabby!? Sara called.  ?Please come here for a minute.?
 Tabby came into the kitchen.  ?Butterfly,? Gil said, ?I was thinking about taking you and Mommy to the amusement park tomorrow.  Would you like to go??
 ?The big one with all the rids?? she asked.  ?Yes,? he said.  ?Yeahhhhhh!? she said.  Gil looked at Sara, ?I take it that is a YES??
 ?Mommy and I have a date,? Tabby said as she ran back to the living room.
 ?I need to get going,? Gil said.  ?I was going to say I was sorry for fallowing you home, but I am not.  I am glad I got to meet Butterfly.  I will see you at the lab tonight,? he said.
 He kissed her good bye.
 ?Me too,? Tabby said.  Gil lift her and kissed her cheek, ?Good bye, Butterfly.  I will see you tomorrow.? 
He handed her to Sara, kissed her cheek and Tabby?s too.  Tabby went to the window and watched as he drove away, ?Bye Gilly,? she said waving.

[GSRLOVER34]

Great chapter! Tabby is such a sweetheart.

[Billyjorja]

Gil is so understanding and talks a lot of sense.

GSRLOVER34 - He plays a special part in my life, not yours!!!!!!

[trishj]

Chapter 3

Shift that night was much better, Sara was in a better mood, everyone noticed the change.

They were all in the break room waiting for their assignments, no one but Sara seen Gil walk in.

?Sara, how about you and I go out to a movie?? Nick asked her.

?I would love to,? she said. Gil?s heart broke on half, ?But I am seeing someone,? she said as she looked at Gil.

Her eyes told him it was him she was talking about.

?Let?s get some work done,? Gil said. ?Sara, you and Catherine have an assault. It is a teen girl, her parents suspect a sexual assault. I think she might be more comfortable with you two them any of us fellas.?

He handed Sara a paper and she and Catherine left.

?Warrick, a Mr. Jackson asked if you could check out a B&E and stolen van for him. He says he knows you.?

?Mr. Jackson ran a boys club in the neighborhood where I grew up. He tried to keep us out of trouble and off the streets,? Warrick explained.

?So I guess that means you and I work together?? Nick said.

?Yes, and we have your favorite thing,? Gil said.

?Not bugs?? Nick said, ?I hate bugs.?

So what has gotten into you?? Catherine asked Sara on their way to their scene.

?Nothing,? was all she said.

?If I did not know better I would say you are high,? Catherine said.

?I am,? Sara said, ?I am high on life.? ?And love,? she said to herself.

Catherine and Sara talked to the girl, being careful how they word their questions they finally got her to open to them. The girl told them that she was at a party and one of the boys there raped her as two others held her down.

?I was not supposed to go,? she said crying, ?I did not tell Mom and Dad because I knew they would be mad.?

?Do you want me to talk to them?? Sara asked. The girls said ?Yes.?

Sara left the room as Catherine got more information.

A little latter the girls parents came in, ?Darling,? her Mom said wrapping the girl in her arms. ?You can tell us anything,? her Dad said.

Sara suggested they take her to a doctor, just to check things out.

On their way back to the lab Catherine looked at Sara, ?You really impressed me.? Sara looked at her, ?Why??

?Normally you are - well harsh and short tempered. This is a side of you I did not think you had,?

?Thank you? I think,? Sara said smiling.

After shift Sara went home, showered and lay down for a while. There was still a while until Gil said he would be there to pick them up.

Sara closed her eyes, the image of Gil and Tabby came back to her. ?If he dose not show up - if he disappoints her - I will kill him,? she said to herself.

It seemed to Sara that she barely closed her eyes when from the living room she heard her daughter, ?Gilly. Mommy, Gilly?s here.? Tabby ran to Gil, he lift her and kissed her cheek.

?Where is Mommy?? he asked.

?Right here,? she said. He kissed Sara too.

?Tabby, get your jacket so we can go,? Sara said. ?Ohhhhhh,? she said. Gil sat her down, ?Butterfly, do as Mommy says.?

Tabby runs off. ?I have never seen her take to anyone like she has you,? Sara told him. ?She is special,? he said.

?I called her ?Butterfly? yesterday,? Sara said, ?and she told me ?Only Gilly can call me that?.

Gil laughed. He put her car seat in the back seat and fastened her in.

?I got you something, Butterfly,? he said. He handed her a bag. She opened it, ?Mommy, it is a teddy bear.? Tabby hugged it and kissed Gil?s cheek, ?Thank you, Gilly.?

?I have something for you too,? he told Sara. He handed her a small box.

?Is it a teddy bear?? Tabby asked. ?No. It is a necklace, with a butterfly on it,? Sara said, ?thank you so much.?

She kissed him and turned so Gil could put it on her.

They went to the amusement park, Tabby sat in the back and played with her bear.

Gil and Sara talked.

At the park Tabby took Gil and Sara?s hand as they walked around the park looking at the rides. Tabby seen a rollercoaster, ?Pleaseeeeee!? ?Yes,? Gil said, ?let?s go.?

Sara was not to sure, they were not her favorite, but she went anyway. ?Whee,? Tabby said as they went up and down on the coaster. At he end of the ride Tabby said, ?Again?? ?No, Butterfly,? Gil said, ?there are lots of other things to do.?

They went on the merry-go-round, ferries wheel, scrambler and the tilt-a-whirl. Sara decided it was enough ?fast? rides for a while.

She wanted Tabatha?s stomach to settle before lunch. So they got on a scenic train ride. Tabby sat next to Gil and yawned.

?Are you sleepy?? Sara asked. ?No,? she said, ?just board.?

?She likes the fast ones,? Sara told Gil.

?Butterfly, we need to let our tummy?s settle if we are going to get hamburger and french-fries for lunch.? ?Yeah!? she said.

After the train ride they went to lunch. Tabby had a burger and fries, Sara had a veggie burger and Gil had a hot dog. The all had chocolate shakes.

As they were eating their food a man came up to Gil, ?You have a beautiful daughter.?

Gil said, ?She is ?? He started to say she was not his daughter but instead he said, ?Yes, she is. Thank you.?

?More rides please?? Tabby asked. ?Let?s let our food settle,? Gil said. They walked around the park and played some games. Sara won a 3 foot tall bear, she gave it to Tabby. ?I want Gilly to have it so he can remember today,? she said. Gil laughed and thanked her.

?You know you cheated,? he told Sara. Sara winked at him, ?I know.? She had won the bear at a shooting gallery.

After their lunch settled they went on more rides. Then Tabby talked Sara into letting her get some cotton candy. ?I normally do not let her have junk food but ? well today is a special day.?

They got ready to leave, Sara buckled ?Buddy? the bear on the other side of Tabby. Tabby fell asleep.

?I had such a wonderful time,? Sara told Gil. ?I know Tabatha did too.?

?So did I,? he said.

The ride back to Sara?s house was quiet. At her house Gil carried Tabby to her bed and lay her down, he kissed her cheek.

?Good night Butterfly,? he said. She walked him to the door.

?Good night,? he said. Gil took her in his arms and kissed her. Sara was still a little unsure, memories of that night with Jones came back to her.

Gil could since her fear, ?Sara, I told you before, I do not believe in casual sex and I meant it. I would never touch a woman in that special way until we are both ready for it. I will never push my needs or wants on her.?

Sara felt more at ease now, she returned his kiss.

?I will see you at the lab tomorrow,? he said.

Gil wanted her, he wanted to enjoy the feel of her body next to his. He wanted to know what made her happy. More important then his needs, he wanted her to want him.

That night Gil went to sleep with Buddy laying in his bed, He hoped that someday it would be Sara.

[trishj]

Chapter 4

A month has gone by. Gil and Sara continue to see Tabby and Sara. He goes over to her house 3 or 4 times a week.
Tomorrow would be Tabatha?s birthday, he had something special for her. In his car Tabby kept asking where they were going.
?It is a birthday surprise,? he told her. He pulled onto a gravel road, ?Ok Butterfly, close your eyes.? She did.
Gil stopped the car and got her out. ?Now keep them closed.?
?We are at a farm,? she said, ?I can tell by the smell.??You are so smart,? he said. ?Open them now,? he said.
They were standing in front of a barn.
?My birthday surprise is a barn??
?No, what is inside,? Gil said. He took her hand and went inside. ?Butterfly, this is my friend Mr. Long, and this is Star.?
Tabby jumped up and down at the site of the horse. ?Mr. Long said you can ride Star, that is your birthday surprise.?
Tabby rode the horse around a small enclosure. Sara stood next to Gil, he put his arm around her waist, she lay her head on him.
After her ride Tabby thanked Mr. Long then ran to Gil. ?Thank you,? she told him as she covered his face with kisses.
?Mr. Long said you an ride Star anytime you want,? he told her. Gil took them to Tabatha?s favorite place to eat, then they went back to Sara?s place for cake.
At bedtime Gil tucked Tabby in and kissed her good night.
?I love you Gilly,? she said. ?I love you too, Butterfly.?
Sara was standing in the doorway, a tear came to her eye as she seen her daughter with her arms wrapped around Gil?s neck.
?I think I am falling in love with you too Gil,? she said to herself.
It has been 6 months since their trip to the amusement park and Tabby?s birthday surprise.
Gil is becoming a frequent visitor. He has taken them to his place often too. Tabby loves it there. Gil lives in the country so there is a lot of room for her to run and play.
Gil has a dog, Hank, he got her a puppy of her own, she calls it GG, for Gilly Grissom.
Gil has gotten Tabby a bike and taught her to ride it. They have had several outings, sometimes they just sit in the living room and just enjoy each others company.
Sara has noticed how attached Tabby is becoming to Gil, and he to her. ?All she has to do is smile and she gets her own way,? Sara told Gil one time.
Everyone at the lab has noticed a difference in Gil and Sara. Catherine had made the comment that ?It might not be love but it soon will be?.
She was right, Gil WAS in love, no doubt about it in his mind. Sara was too, but she was still a little scared. She had decided to find out for sure what was going on in his head.
At shift that night Sara walked into Gil?s office. ?Was wondering if you would like to come over for dinner tonight?? ?Sure,? he said, ?When??
?How about 7?? she said. ?Will see you both then,? he said. ?Tabby will not be there,? Sara said. ?She has a birthday party/sleep over tonight.?
?Oh!? he said a little nervously, ?Ok. See you then.?
The rest of the crew came in and Gil handed out their assignments.
Gil put Catherine and Sara together. Warrick and Nick worked their case together too. He stayed at the office, this surprised everyone, Gil never willingly stayed there.
Sara was not mentally with it, she made several mistakes and was easily distracted.
?What the hell is wrong with you?? Catherine asked.
?I am sorry,? Sara said, ?I just have something on my mind.?
?SOMETHING or SOMEONE?? Catherine said.
?Is it that obvious?? Sara asked blushing.
?Only if you call you lighting up every time you see him or that smile and looks you sneak when you think no one notices obvious,? Catherine said with a smile.
Sara blushed, ?Ok, someone.?
?So what are you doing about it?? Catherine asked. Sara filled her in with her plans, she leaves Tabatha out.
?Do you want to have sex with him?? Catherine asks flat out. Sara looked at her a little shocked.
?I do and I don?t,? Sara tells her. ?I think I want him that way,? she says, ?but there is a part of me that is afraid that sex is all he wants.?
?You want more?? Catherine asks.
?Yes. I care for him, but if all that is just leading to a one night roll in the hay I don?t think I can handle that and I know I can not stay here.?
?I can not tell you what is going on in his mind,? Catherine tells her. ?But I can tell you something.?
After making Sara promise not to say a word to anyone Catherine tells her about a dinner with her and Gil a few years ago. ?I tried to seduce him,? Catherine said, ?he gave me this story about not believing in casual sex and not doing it until it feels right. Then he said something that made me think. He said 'sex without love is pointless, it makes you sad'. Then he said that casual sex is just that - pointless.?
Sara thanked her and asked her to keep their conversation to herself.
At her house that night Sara was a little more sure of her feelings. She still was not sure if Gil would show up but she would find out.
At 7 on the dot Gil knocked on her door. Sara let him in, he tenderly kissed her, just as he always dose.
After they ate Sara and Gil are sitting on the couch, they talk most of the night.
Finally Sara says, ?I wanted to talk to you about something.?
?I am listening,? he tells her.
?Tabatha is getting very close to you,? she tells him, ?and I don?t want her hurt.?
?Sara, I would never hurt my Butterfly,? he tells her.
?I know you would not physically hurt her,? Sara said, ?but??
Gil finally picks up on what she is trying to say.
?But if I were to stop coming over it would hurt her?? Gil said trying to help her out. ?Yes,? she said.
?Sara, I spent all day trying to think of how to say what I need to say,? he told her starting to fidget.
?Here it comes,? Sara thinks, ?I never want to see you again if you do not put out.? Out loud she says, ?And that would be??
?Sara, I could not love Tabatha more if she was my own child. She is so precious. But as much as I love her.? He stops to recollect his thoughts. ?I love you more,? he takes a deep breath.
Sara looks at Gil, she smiles. ?I love you too. It is just that I am not ready for the 'physical' side of a relationship and, well I thought that was all you wanted.?
Gil raised his eyebrow at her, "You need to be friends before you become lovers?"
Sara smiled at him. She giggled nervously, "I thought about trying to seduce you, try to get you to the bedroom.? ?Why?? he asked.
?To see if you really wanted to be with me or it all this was leading up to sex. After what you just said, I have my answer,? Sara told him.
?Sara, I explained all that to you before,? he told her.
?I know it is just that - some men will say or do anything just to get what they want,? she told him.
?In case you have not figured it out - I am NOT most men,? he tells her.
?I understand that now, that is why I laughed. It just accrued to me how foolish my plan was,? she said.
?I am going to be completely honest with you,? he tells her, ?I do want you in that special way. But I can also tell you are unsure about that kind of relationship.?
?Yes, I am,? she tells him.
?Sara, I love you deeply. I will never hurt you or Butterfly. I guess what I am trying to say is, if or when it happens, it will happen when you want it too. I love you enough to wait.?
Sara no longer has any doubts or fears.

[Billyjorja]

Lovely updates.  He's making a lovely dad.

GSRLOVER34 - What is he doing in bed with a bear when WE are available!!!!!!!  One at a time though.

[GSRLOVER34]

Great chapters!

billyjorja - I get him first!

[trishj]

Chapter 5

They talked a little longer, Sara?s phone rang.  ?Yes ? How long ? I will be right there, bye.?
  To Gil she said, ?Tabatha is sick, she is vomiting and running a fever.?
 They go to get her They go to get her, Sara knocks on the door, her neighbor opens it, holding Tabby.
  ?Gill,? she says with a weak voice, ?I sick.?  Gil lovingly takes her in his arms, ?I know Butterfly.?
 Gil takes her to her bed and lays her down.  ?No,? Tabby cries, ?Gill don?t go.?  Gil pulls a chair next to her bed and sits with her.
  ?I am not going anywhere,? he kisses her forehead.
  Later Gil goes to Sara?s room.  ?Sara,? he calls waking her up.  ?I think you need to take Butterfly to the hospital.  There is blood in her vomit.? 
Sara threw off the covers and grabbed for her clothing, it was then that she realized she had fallen asleep right after her shower, she was not dressed.
 Gil sees her, he turns around quickly, ?She is so beautiful,? he says to himself.  While she is dressing Gil takes Tabby to the car.
  In the ER the doctor run some tests.  The doctor tells Sara that they need to do an emergency appendectomy.
 Sara signs the papers, they let her see Tabby for a minute.  A nurse comes out to the waiting room.
 ?Tabby said she wants to see Gilly.?  Gil goes back to the room.  ?I am scared,? Tabby tells him.
 ?Butterfly, there is nothing to be afraid of.  The doctor will fix you up and Mommy and I will be right here.?
 He bends down and kisses her.  ?Hold Betty till I get done,? Tabby said handing him the bear he got her.  Gil takes it and smiles.
 They go to the waiting room and sit, Gil holds Sara.  Finally the doctor comes to them, ?Tabatha will be fine. 
We will keep her a couple of days.  You may go see her now.?  Gil  and Sara sit next to Tabby?s bed.  Tabby opens her eyes, ?You are here??
  ?We said we would be,? Gil says.  He hands her back the bear, ?Now you and Betty get some rest.  Mommy and I will be right here.? 
?Gilly,? she says, ?I want you to be my Daddy.?
 She closes her eyes, Gil and Sara look at each other, surprised.  Neither say anything, they did not know what  to say.
 Finally Sara says, ?I promise, I never said anything to her about it.?  ?I believe you,? he tells her.
 For the next half hour they just sit by the bed, Tabby opens her eyes, ?Hi!?  ?Hello Butterfly,? Gil says kissing her forehead.
 ?Where is Mommy?? she asks.  Gil whispers in her ear, ?Mommy had to go potty.?  Tabby tries to laugh, ?That hurt!?
 ?It will for a while, Butterfly,? Gil tells her.  He explains to her in a way she can understand about what happened.  Tabby lifts the sheet and looks at the bandages.  ?WOW!!? 
Sara comes in, ?How is my Tabby Cat feeling??  ?I have a boo-boo,? she said as she shows Sara the bandages.
 ?Gilly told me what happened and what the doctor did,? she said.  ?Thank you Gilly,? Sara says smiling. 
?NO!? Tabby says, ?MY Gilly.  You call him Gilbert.?  ?That is what I call you when Tabby and I are talking,? she says blushing.  ?I like the way it sounds,? he said.
 ?Tabby,? Sara said, ?Why did you say you wanted Gilbert to be your Daddy??  ?All my friends have a daddy, I want one too,? she said.
 ?But Daddy?s and Mommy?s live together,? Gil said.  ?No,? she said, ?Joey?s daddy and mommy do not live together.  They got a vorce.?
 ?Joey?s dad only sees him on weekends,? Sara said remembering who it was Tabby about. 
?SOOOO,? Tabby said a little annoyed because Sara cut in, ?you be MY daddy?  We can do stuff together.? 
Gil laughed, ?Butterfly, we already do things together.?
 ?So you ARE my daddy?? Tabby asked.  Gil looked at Sara, ?If Mommy says it is alright.?
 ?Mommy?? Tabby said with her famous ?sad puppy? look in her brown eyes,  ?It is alright,? Sara said. 
?Goody, I have a daddy too,? Tabby said hugging Gil. 
The nurse came in to check Tabatha?s dressing, Gil and Sara stepped out.  ?I have given you the next 3 days off so you can be with Butterfly.  I will stop by when I can,? he told her. 
?I can?t afford time off,? she said.  ?I wrote them up as ?personal days? so you will get paid for then,? he told her.
 The nurse came out, they went in.  ?Butterfly, I have to go to work, you be good and I will see you when I can,? Gil told her.  ?Mommy too?? she asked.  ?No sweetheart,? Sara said.  ?Mommy has sometime off to take care of you.?
 Tabby kissed Gil, ?I love you, Gilly.?  ?I love you too, Butterfly.?  He kissed Sara and softly said, ?I love you too.?  Sara smiled, ?I love you too, Gilbert.? 
At the lab Gil told the rest of the crew that Sara had a personal matter she had to tend to and would be off for 3 says.
 That next weekend Gil comes over, Tabby is feeling much better, he takes her to the park while Sara runs some errands.  Tabby grabs his hand and runs to the swings, there are 3 other children playing there too.
 ?Seeeeee,? she says to them, ?I told you I have a daddy.?  They all look at Gil, ?I am Nancy.  I am Joey,  I am Ruth.? 
Gil is a little nervous but he dose not let it show.  The rest of the afternoon he and Tabby play with the other children. 
A man comes over and calls Joey.  Joey says good bye to his friends.  ?It is hard to be a weekend father,? the man says to Gil assuming that that is what Gil is too.  Gil just nods his head. 

[trishj]

Chapter 6

A little later a man goes to Ruth, she started to cry.
  Gil overhears the man tell her that her mommy sent him to get her because she has to work.
  Something in Gil?s insides tells him that things are not right.
  He walks over to the man and the crying child.
  Gil picks up the girl, she stops crying.
  ?I am her neighbor,? the man says, ?her mom has to work late and asked me to pick her up.?
 ?Butterfly, you and Betty go to the sandbox,? Gil said.
 The girls run to the box.  ?Why is she crying?? Gil asks.
 ?She did not want to stop playing,? the man answered, ?you know how kids are.?  Gil still dose not like the feel of it.
 ?Now, if you don?t mind, I need to get her and get going,? the man said.
  ?Give me her mothers work number so I can make sure it is ok,? Gil said.  ?I told her this morning I would keep an eye on her.?
  The man was starting to get nervous, ?I .. I can?t remember it,? he said.  Looking at the sandbox the man yells, ?Come on Betty, your Mommy wants me to get you.?
 Gil knows his gut feelings are right, he reaches in his pocket and hits the #1 on his work phone,  that number is preprogrammed directly to police headquarters.  It means ?something is wrong and send help?. 
?Sir, I can?t let you take the girl with you,? Gil tells him.  ?But Betty?s mom is expecting me,? he said starting to fidget.
 ?Ruth?s mom is not,? Gil says.  The man turns to run, Gil tackles him.
 By this time a crowd has gathered around.  The man tries to say that Gil was trying to take his daughter.
 Without letting the man go, Gil shows his badge, ?Gil Grissom, LVPD.? 
An officer shows up and cuffs the man, Gil fills him in on everything.  As he is talking Ruth?s mother shows up. 
Ruth runs to her.  Gil explains everything to her, ?I can?t thank you enough.?
 ?My pleasure,? Gil said.  ?I have a brave Daddy,? Tabby says.
  ?You sure do,? Ruth and Nancy say.
 By this time Sara arrives, Tabby tells her everything.
 ?He saved my daughters life,? Ruth?s mother tells her, ?you are lucky to have a man like him in your life.?
 ?Yes, I am,? Sara says as she kisses him.
 The man was taken to the police station, he was printed and questioned.  His prints got an immediate hit, he was a known pedophile recently released from prison.
 Sara and Gil were at her house when Ruth and her mother knocked on the door.
 ?An officer just called my house,? she said.  She proceeded to tell them about the man.  ?I just don?t know how to thank you,? she said to Grissom.  ?It scares me to think what might have happened to my daughter.?
 ?There is really no reason,? Gil insisted, ?I am just glad that Butterfly and I were there.?
  Ruth went to Gil.  ?Tabby?s daddy,? she said, ?that man scared me.  I am so happy you were there to help me.? 
She handed him a homemade card.  ?Mommy helped me,? she said.
 The card had a picture of the park drawn on it, inside it said: TO MY HERO, TABBY?S DADDY  THANK YOU, RUTH.
 ?You are welcome,? he said, a tear starting to form, ?I will treasure this forever.?  After they left Gil and Sara and Tabby went out to eat, then he took her to see a movie. 
Tabby was sleeping by time they got back.
 Gil carried her to her bed, he lay her down and kissed her good night.  ?How about a cup of tea before you go?? Sara asked.
 Gil and Sara sat on the couch, she put in a DVD he wanted to see.  ?It is getting late,? he said after the movie, ?I need to go.?
 Gil kissed her good bye and left. 
The next night at the lab everyone was asking questions.  ?What were you doing at a park?? Catherine asked.
 ?I like to watch kids play,? Gil said. 
Quickly he handed out assignments, he did not want to answer anymore questions.
 Sara looked at her assignment for the evening, attached to it was a note: I LOVE YOU he signed it GILBERT.  Sara smiled.
 Gil was processing some evidence from the night before when his phone rang.  Mr. Grissom, I hate to bother you but Tabby will not go to sleep until she talks to you,? it was Tabby?s sitter.
 ?I love you too Butterfly,? he said.
 He did not know Catherine had overheard him.  ?Butterfly?? she said to herself.  She was about to say something when Gil went flying out the lab.
  ?What is wrong?? Catherine said.  ?Sara?s hurt,? was all she heard as he flew past her.
 Confused Catherine called Capt. Jim Brass.  ?Sara?s car was hit by a drunk driver on her way back from the scene, she is in the ER,? he told her. 
Catherine fallowed Gil to the hospital  A nurse told her that Mr. Grissom had gone to room 4 to see Miss Sidle. 
Catherine walked down the hall, the doctor was in the room.
  ?You are very lucky Miss Sidle,? he said, ?there are no internal injuries.  You will be bruised and very sore for a few days.  Your left wrist is fractured, we will be casting it shortly.  I am putting you off work for at least 4 weeks.  Once the cast comes off I will fit you with a brace.  You will need to wear it for about 2 months.  For the next three days I do not want you home alone you did take a nasty bump to the head.?
 ?She will not be alone,? Gil told him.  After the doctor left Catherine took a few steps closer to the door, she was going to go in.  What she heard next shocked her.
 ?I thought I lost you,? Gil said wrapping his arms around her.  ?That will not happen, love,? Sara said.  Gil kissed her, tenderly.  ?I love you,? he said.  She smiled, ?Me too.?
 ?Butterfly and you can stay with me,? he said.  ?I don?t want to put you out,? Sara said.  ?You will not be putting me out.  You know I love Butterfly as much as I do you,? he told her.
 ?I know,? she said, ?but you have never had a 4 year old around you 24/7.?  ?It will be fine,? he said.
 Catherine quickly walked away.  She had always thought something was going on with them two, but she never guesses a child was involved. 
After telling Tabby what had happened Gil told her that they would be coming to stay with him for a while. 
?YEAH!!!!? Tabby said. 
Gil got Tabby settled in the spare room.  ?This will be where you sleep,? he told her.
 ?What about Mommy?? she asked.
 ?Mommy will sleep in my room,? Gil told her. 
Sara looked at him, she was about to say something when he said, ?I will sleep on the sofa in the living room.? 
Tabby looked at him, ?Why don?t you sleep with Mommy?? 
Gil blushed, ?Mommy and I have to be married before we sleep together.?
 ?Oh, ok,? was all she said.
 Sara looked at him and smiled, ?You handled that quite well.?  ?I was not sure what to say,? he told her.         

[trishj]

An "M" rated version of this story is posted on fanfiction.

Chapter 7

At work the next night Catherine about went crazy trying to figure out how to get Gil to tell her what was going on.
 ?Can I help you with something?? Gil asked when he seen her hanging outside his office.
 ?Yeah,? she said, ?Who is Butterfly?  How long have you and Sara been sleeping together?"
  Gil looked at her and said nothing.  ?I overheard you at the hospital,? she told him.  Gil still said nothing, he just walked away.
 At the house Gil told Sara about Catherine.  ?What are we going to do?? Sara asked.  ?We tell them the truth,? Gil said.  ?But ?? Sara said.  ?It will be ok, I will be right there with you.?
 The next night at work Gil asked everyone to go to his office, they were surprised to find Sara sitting at his desk.
 ?It seems that Catherine has uncovered something and she has been spreading rumors around here like wildfire,? he started. 
?To start with, Catherine, you need to learn to mind your own business.  Because you did not now I need to straighten things up.  I am saying this once.  Sara was raped when she lived in San Francisco, the rape resulted in a pregnancy, Tabatha.  Sara and I am involved, but NOT sleeping together? - he looked at Catherine.
 ?And if we were it would not be your business,? Sara added.
  No more questions were asked, Sara left.
 Sara stayed with Gil until her cast came off.  4 weeks latter she came back to work, no one said anything about Tabby.
  Gil and Sara have been seeing each other for over 6 months, their relationship has grown.  The one thing that made her love him more was the fact that Gil never mentioned sleeping together.
 They attended Jim?s birthday party and Sara introduced Tabatha to everyone,  After that it was always the 3 of them.
 One night after a trip to the movies Gil and Sara were watching Tabby play with GG and Hank.  Sara went to the kitchen to get drinks.
  ?Butterfly,? Gil said.  She came to him.
 He picked her up and sat her on the couch.  Down on one knee he said, ?Tabatha Lynn Sidle, Will you please become my daughter??
 ?For real?? she said.  ?Yes, for real,? he answered her.
 ?Gilly Grissom, yes I will,? she said as she kissed him.  Then she whispered, ?You better ask Mommy.?
 Sara came in the living room.  ?Mommy, Gilly wants to talk to you?? she said.  Tabby laughed as she ran back to playing with the dogs.
  ?Sara,? he said, ?I would be very happy if you would allow me to become Butterfly?s Daddy.  And I would be honored if you would consent to become my wife.?  ?Oh yes,? she said.
 The next month, with their friends and co-workers there, Gil and Sara exchanged vows in a small ceremony.
  Gil picked up Tabatha, ?Miss Tabatha Sidle, just as I have promised to love your mother and take care of her I make the same promise to you.  I will love you and take care of you.  I will be here for you and I will protect you.  I will be your Daddy.?
  Tabatha hugged him, ?And I promise to love you forever, Daddy.?
  He placed a butterfly necklace around her neck, on the back side he had the date engraved on it.
  That night Gil tucked Tabby in the bed in the room she had come to call hers.
  ?Gilly?? she said, ?you and Mommy are married now??  ?Yes,? he said.  ?You will sleep in your room with her??
  ?Yes,? he said, ?Why??  ?Cause I have to know where to find you in the morning so we can make pancakes.?  Gil kissed her.
 Sara was already in the bedroom when he gets there.  She had on a powder blue silk negligee on.  ?You are so beautiful,? he said taking her in his arms.
  He kissed her, at first the same tender kiss he had for the last 6 months, then with more passion.
 ?I have waited so long for this,? she whispered as he started kissing her neck.
  He let his hands explore her body.  ?I have wanted you from the first,? he said as he removed negligee. 
His lips and hands found parts of her that he had only dreamed of touching.
 He enjoyed her moans and reactions as he lost himself in those special places.  He stayed at her love button until he brought her to a climax that left her quivering.
 Needing to release what was building inside him he entered her.  Their movements matched their breathing, unable to contain it any longer, he thrust deep in her and let himself climax.
   Sara and Gil lay wrapped in each others arms, ?Mrs. Grissom, I love you so.?  Sara slept wrapped in his arms, Gil lay awake for a while.
  He loved the way she made him feel.  He smiled, he thought to himself how many times he had wanted her in this special way.
 He also remembered how many ice cold showers he had taken just because of the way she looked or the way she smelled or that sweet tender kiss they shared.
  He thought how proud he felt when Butterfly asked him to be her daddy.  His life was perfect, he doubted anything could make it better.
  He finally drifted off to sleep.   

[GSRLOVER34]

Great chapters! Read the other version as well.

[Billyjorja]

Great chapters, like GSRLOVER34 I have read the other version.

GSRLOVER34 - When is my turn and don't say never.